Thank you everyone for all of your help thus far, but if I can PLEASE have all the most positive thoughts and well wishes, hugs, and prayers! There is far too much strain in my "life" right now. I just got out of the hospital again after another OD. I am wondering if something like that will happen again--SOON. I can't believe the chain of events to freak me out. Having PTSD doesn't help one bit! I seriously need a million shoulders to cry on. Since I am alone here in real life, I thought PC would be the next best place to get that. I sure wish you all were here with me physically.