It is very hard to talk about, we all understand that one. But you need some help or it will eat you up inside. There are many people trained in this, they wont judge you, just help you. Takes time to build up a trust with someone but give yourself time and it will come. You are worth getting better and at least venting this difficult time with someone whom you feel safe with. Its good that you are able to say it in here. I think its a good start. Keep your chin up and take care. We are here for u and thinking of you.

justy