My PDoc just added Trazodone to the arsenal of drugs I take. It's for the insomnia the Lexapro (SSRI) gives me. It's an antidepressant that's good for anxiety and panic attacks. The average dose is something like 300mg for depression. I'm only on 50mg to help me sleep. I didn't want to wake up this morning. I felt really graugy. I'm taking it at 6pm this time in hopes that It doesn't make me stay in bed until 11am like it did this morning. That's not healthy. I'd rather get up at around 7am.

It took over 2 1/2 years to recover and get the meds right but I think I finally found the best balance I'm going to get. It's kind of sad that this is the most Ill ever be of my old self but it could be worse. I really hope they make great strides in antidepressants soon. There's much room for improvement. I'm experiencing so many side effects it's crazy, and evvery night is different. I'm either agitated, feel numb inside, feel depression, have a panic attack, or have decreased consciousness. I rarely can relax and enjoy myselff after 6pm.