Hi everyone. I am new here and have spent the last couple of days reading the threads. A little background on me: I'm in my 30's, married with 2 kids. I work in the medical field which means that I know too much and not enough all at the same time. Pretty much enough just to scare myself.

My current situation is that I have been having issues with what I thought was depression and anxiety for years. The older I get, the more significant it feels. This year I have had what I thought were several episodes of depression that lasted 2ish weeks each. So I finally broke down and went to my dr for an antidepressant. I had taken citalopram in the past and had an immediate horrible reaction. I felt trapped in my own mind and extremely agitated. It took me about 10 days to recover from 5 days of meds. When I told my dr about that reaction he immediately said bipolar. Which of course made me very nervous.

I had requested to try wellbutrin because it is not an SSRI. He started talking about antipsychotics. I am familiar with the side effects so my anxiety just went through the roof. I am on day 3 of wellbutrin and am experiencing anxiety but I don't know if it is actually the medicine or if it is fear.

How do you handle the anxiety/fear/stress that this puts on you? Obviously I am getting ahead of myself. I don't have a definitive diagnosis, but looking back, I can kind of see it. I haven't had any serious swings, low or high, but the fear that I could in the future... I know I should take it one day at a time. I was just hoping someone could relate.