Thanks, Kindness that really does help. I think this ties in with trying to associate pleasure and pleasing emotions with taking pills so I will definitely give this a try!

I think getting more Feng Shui would help me all around. Currently I'm staying in my mom's basement and it's filthy down there. I sleep on this cramped, dirty loveseat and if I turn the light off the bugs start coming out I don't have anything of my own out or anything comforting surrounding me.