Sometimes, it can be easy to think that maybe meds aren't necessary. maybe life circumstances have changed, or to think we have changed and developed and feeling like for whatever reason we don't need them because we never wanted to take them in the first place. You are not alone, I think about this alot. But try to keep a humble attitude, it's not our fault but the truth is we have a chemical imbalance and it's not our fault, it just is the cards we have been dealt. Life keeps going, and so should we. Most times doing what's the right and best thing is so hard, but possible.