Okay, I read through this thread, and I can't believe the things I said in here. Was that really me talking? No. It wasn't. It was the depression demons swaying my mind and spitting out such self loathing nonsense.

Thanks to Vital and all he did for me, I have found a way to crawl out of the deep dark hole I was in, and to thrust myself into the light. I wrote a poem about my experience too. It's in the Poetry section, just FYI.

Now your probably wondering what I did to practically become reborn as my true self? I snapped. Literally. I snapped my fingers as a proud member of the SNAP CLUB. See Vital's thread about he understood and overcame his depression with the simple and oh so easy gesture of snapping his fingers whenever he made a conscious decision to do something. It really works, like magic almost.

Anyways, as I'm discovering my true self, and the happiness that seems to come bubbling from within my heart, I must say, it's kind of strange at first. It's like living in a cave all your life, in the dark, and suddenly, one day, deciding to step out into the outside world, and into the light (Okay, I admittedly just got done watching the movie "The Croods" and drew that analogy from there, but it works).

Before I started SNAP CLUB, I always thought that platitude about happiness coming from within oneself a little, annoying, and sure, I may have lashed out a bit at those offering a lending hand, so yeah. I apologize to those who I hurt, but most importantly, I want to say this. Thanks everyone who offered me help, I now know that you were only trying to bring me out of my depressive funk, and weren't just being cliche and cheesy sounding on purpose.

Okay, I'm going to end this post before I start rambling on about cheese and how I can't eat it. Don't get me started on that. It could take a while before I stop. Just remember to be happy and maybe one day you can snap just like I did (and I mean via your fingers, not mentally snap. That would be bad.

Okay, bye bye now.