I am about to go to college, and it is terrifying me! It seems like everything is hitting at one time, I have never had a busier and more important year in my life.
I really want to go to this one college, it is an amazing school and I have worked extremely hard to get to where I am in that it actually is an option for me. I have already been accepted and been guaranteed a decent amount of scholarship money, yet finances is still an issue. My parents have made many mistakes, and they are coming back on us three-fold it feels like.
Plus, this is super petty, but my cousin will get to go to where I want to go(for certain) even though she has not worked near as hard and has not gotten the result academically that I have. Same with a lot of my classmates.
It just feels like no matter what I, or anyone else, tries to do, it is all about the money. I just want a chance, and while I may have it(depending on if I can score more scholarship money) there is a chance I will not when I feel like it should not be there.
This issue may not seem extremely large, but it is the fact that it makes me incredibly angry that makes me worry. It is one of the things that really upset me and that I cannot change. I had to write about it because it is on my mind and kind of freaking me out. It is all making me feel very anxious, and I just want it to be over with. I know the future is a mystery, but I feel like some things should not be so uncertain.