Quote:
Originally Posted by cashart10
"But slow down
There's some sort of blessing here
But you've gone and missed your cue
So keep your eyes set on the horizon
On the line where blue meets blue
And I would let that silver lining
Where I know it'd find you soon
'Cause I have sailed a 1000 ships to you
But my messages don't seem to make it through"
Thank you.  It made me want to both smile and cry and I hear you. I am, unfortunately, still listening to music that sustains my mood today...because I am a mess and make bad decisions for myself, ha! I will listen to this song for a while; I really like it and it is quite uplifting.
I kept my hair appointment today. My hairdresser is also a friend of mine who happens to know about my illness. She asked me how I was doing with the doctor switch and medication dosage change. We then talked about whether I was mentally ill or deal with great spiritual warfare (this of course led by me). She has of a more spiritual perspective so I was probably not talking to the right person as far as this is concerned. Anyway, what I really wanted to do was tell her how badly I am doing right now and then just hug her. She would have probably thought I am crazy. I feel so needy.
I would love to be there when you need it. I hope that this mania helps you to be productive and that you continue to find enjoyment from it. Thank you for listening to me. |
I am glad you enjoyed the song. In this comment you said you 'make bad decisions for yourself' I understand that feeling because I feel like I make bad decisions for myself too - but I have noticed I only feel that if I am giving time to myself instead of giving it to someone else. The guilt factor. So, I think I need to - and I mean, WE need to re-evaluate that guilt factor and maybe tweak it. Give ourselves an amount of time during the bad points of the illnesses symptoms and then give ourselves an amount of time to offer to others. This part is hard for me, cause it is hard to make any type of schedule. But I imagine the freedom in earning myself some selfish time. Example, I will get up at 7, take care of the kids and chores, and give myself 2 hours this afternoon to be totally in my shell. Then again 2 hours this evening. (just an example)
Very happy that you gave yourself a hair appointment.
and fyi - I am a stranger hugger. You never know when you meet a few minutes best friend. Had you offered a hug, she probably would have complied.
My mania turned sour, got weird, did get 4 hours of sleep, got a little productive with a short fuse - but for me, kids grown - I have more attitude latitude.