Thank you Alex... All that you say touches me... really.

This quote sums it up... and it is embarrassing... but something to work through...

((In the psychoanalytic sense projection is a defence mechanism, an unconscious psychic operation whereby qualities, feelings, wishes, and so on, which the person refuses to recognise or to accept in himself, are expelled from the self and attributed to another person or thing (Laplanche et al., 1973, p. 349). In other words, projection is a defence against what we cannot make conscious or cannot bear in ourselves. It appears most clearly in paranoia.))

You have given me much to think about and read/reference and hopefully take in...

Thanks for sharing what you have and for admitting to having experienced this. It really is a shameful thing for me. Interesting though.