Thanks for all your input everyone!

There are a lot of things, more than the sleep that make me think this, the rapid speech, thinking so fast, and doing so many things at once, to being so depressed, i can't even put a thought together... but also, it's rapid cycling, every week or two.... i asked for a second opinion over a decade ago, his two colleagues said, if it's anything it'd be bp2.......... yet, never been treated for it, or attempted to be treated for it. Which blows my mind, because the only meds I haven't tried are mood stabilizers.......

I'm in Canada, and on disability.... so the options for finding a new dr are limited. and once you're put on something like a benzodiazapine, or any other 'addictive' drug, other drs are hesitant to give them to you.... I've tried getting my GP to refer me to a new one, and he got a letter back saying that my psychiatrist has to refer me, unless I'm not currently seeing one. Which I guess I've been hesitant to do, because I have a concern of his bs ideals of me following me.

I see him tomorrow, but I'm hesitant to ask for a new one just yet, I start therapy with my old therapist again in the next couple weeks, and so I figure I might as well wait until i start, then at least have her support thru it. . . Maybe can give me some ideas as well. The only places I can really go are the hospital i'm being treated at now, and one other. . . They opened a clinic here, which is basically an ER for mentally ill people, and I was going to go there, until my doctor mentioned when they need drs, they call the people at his hospital, so I think it'd just be one big circle.... End up back where i started..

Just wanted to add, that i was on opiates, well severely addicted to them for about 6 years, so it wasn't as noticeable, now that I've been off of them for 8 months, the symptoms are getting harder to control, and way more apparent.

Thank you once again for all the opinions, and sharing your stories. Helps to know I'm not alone in all of this.