Sorry you are struggling. I know how you feel. I have made some very poor financial decisions in my life. I lost two jobs in a row two years ago due to depression. Since then I have just done a lot of side work and that has only been in the past nine months. The year and a half before that I could barely get out of bed. I barely held it together at work for three months before I just couldn't make it in.
Reach out for help as much as you can while you are still able to function to a certain degree. It may help very much. In my case it didn't. I got all kinds of help during that period when I got fired and it didn't help. Even TMS. But you never know. Nine months ago a new med worked. This time of year would normally be my absolute worst and I would be in a deep depression. this year I am not. The meds and therapy are working. I had a great holiday. We have to keep trying and we need lots of help.
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The "paradox" is only a conflict between reality and your feeling of what reality "ought to be." -- Richard Feynman
Major Depressive Disorder
Anxiety Disorder with some paranoid delusions thrown in for fun.
Recovering Alcoholic and Addict
Possibly on low end of bi polar spectrum...trying to decide.
Male, 50
Fetzima 80mg
Lamictal 100mg
Remeron 30mg for sleep
Klonopin .5mg twice a day, cutting this back
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