((((Sunny))))

Sunrise,

Well, then regarding goals, please call your T and leave a message that he must ask you first what the goals are for the session. You can even tell him it's because you are unable to articulate your goals after your husband has first say. At least address this in your individual session

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I guess we are indeed going to the session tomorrow, because through inertia, I have done nothing to make alternative plans, such as calling T to cancel. I feel swept along by this. Kind of like bobbing around in a vortex of water, being drawn inexorably down the drain. Maybe my husband won't show up at the session tomorrow. [/fingerscrossed] It's kind of like whenever he goes away on business, I hope he never returns. That would just be so much easier.

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Awww Sunrise, you are in a lot of pain. ((((hugs Sunrise))) I don't think you should have to feel like you are diving into the pool with your eyes closed. This is something that you can do with your eyes opened and your T's help. Hang in there Sunrise, you have prepared for this and you are strong.