Hello everybody, i am not sure how i should start. Mayby i should first explain that i am a male and had a few relationships with women. Although i only had sex with one of them, i am sure to be at least straight.

Ok now my question... in addition to that i also like fur... it started with plush animals with which i had my first sexual experience. I loved them to be as big as possible. Searching for bigger plushies on the internet i found information about the furry community. I joined a forum, went to meetings and also met my last girlfriend (the one i had sex with).

I also get aroused by watching somebody having sex with animals, although i never had or want to have sex with them myself. For me realationship and sex belong together, that means i don't like to have sex with somebody i am not in love with and who does not love me back. And since this is not possible with an animal (at least in my opinion), i don't think i will ever have sex with one myself.

But this all confuses me. Is this fur thing just a fetish or do i have a serious problem? Wiki says something is only a paraphilia if one suffers from it. But i am not sure if i suffer from it. I like my plushies and it is really fun. Also looking at furry or animal porn (the clean one where the animals don't get hurt) is fun. So i'm not suffering from the thing itself, but from the fact that i can't tell anybody. I have 2 friends that know about this and i am really glad i have them. But it's always hard for me to be around other people. I always feel like i am not able to be myself and fear to unintentionally reveal something of this to the wrong person.

Now i hope you don't think i am a pervert or something. I really like to have a relationship with a woman, but i don't know how i can get this together with my "fetish". Hope you can help me.