Well it's been a week and things are a little easier. I sent him a text on years eve and got one back saying happy new year. I haven't contacted him other than that, he did say he's there for me if I need him but I don't know if he felt obliged to say that because he volunteers for the samaritans and I'm not about to say how I really feel and that I haven't been eating and lost 6 lbs in one week.

I've been thinking a lot to myself about whether he really loved me and I think he did in his own way, I don't know if he's being honest to himself about whether he does now. I mean I get why he was annoyed about the arguments, I got moody and then didn't give him a break when it was his turn to be in a mood. I just need to give him time to work out what he want's to do next I guess.