i am a nobody. you know why? you know why i say that? because even though ive achieved a few small things - it still doesnt matter to the rest of the world and even the people in my OWN family forget about it. thats what makes someone a nobody. i gotta do something big that people will remember either for a long time or for forever.

its bad enough that im almost 25 and my own dad alone single handedly accomplished a lot more than i have by 25. let alone all these other people in this country who have.

ive been derailed by this illness and these clinics and hospitalizations. im not going to let ANYBODY tell me i cant do something. let them talk all they want. ive heard it many times before too especially with these clinics and doctors saying ill be so sick for the rest of my life that i wont be able to have a job or kids or the like.