So just to update on my depression, it continues to get worse and I continue to have wishes of death. Feel stuck, appetite and memory are suffering. My mind feels like it is constantly tired. I always feel dehydrated despite how much water I drink. I'm surprised to still be alive each morning I wake up. I don't think therapy or medication will ever work since it has been almost a year of it by now. Don't see my therapist until the 12th, though I don't really care about it and might just stop going altogether. I've already stopped taking my pills.