This evil drug aka Meth has it's grip on me once more. I had almost 15 months clean when I relapsed 3 weeks ago. I've been on a binge since. Crazy how much worse my use is this time around. My addiction is out of control.

My motivation to get clean is slowly increasing. As i write down everything important to me. All that I'll lose if i continue on. I've also written down the pro's and con's of using. That was an eye opener.

This drug is so evil. Why can't I just stop? Knowing that at any time it could just kill me.

Ugh..