Arsenal I am in hopes that things get better for you in 2015. I have been getting that New Years depression. I can't help but see the things that were hard last year. And I don't see 2015 getting any better unless something drastic happens, or unless I learn to be at peace with how things are.

If you think it will help, see a psychiatrist or therapist. Seek out help. I also like the suggestion someone made on here about journaling. I may try that and see if it makes a difference, and setting small goals.
Best wishes.