Thanks for your answers, we (my partner and I) have had a very rough year I was hospitalised three times once for three weeks and the other two for 5 days each I was diagnosed with OCD, depression with Sui ideation, AvPD, binge eating disorder, sensory processing disorder and traits of DID I feel like I'm collecting labels all over the place and my partner is really trying hard to be supportive but never knows if I'm being safe day to day (I also cut).

I feel very overwhelmed when my partner gets upset with my behaviour especially when I have no recollection therefore feel like I can't change it or prevent it happening again.

I have been on my meds for about 8mths so don't think it's related to that my GP is very good at doing blood tests and the like every couple of months.

My partner and I got into another argument last night as I had prepared dinner and apparently it's something I had been told a few times they don't like it got a little heated then ended in tears for both of us. I have absolutely no recollection of being told this and am starting to worry that I'm loosing my mind and things are heading south again. I can't end up back in hospital