Sadly, in my career field, it seems like employment is not based on skill or even education (except a doctorate is required for university teaching for the most part), but who you know (or more specifically, who you're sleeping with…). I'm starting to suspect that you have to have been born to the right family, grew up in the right environment/city, go to the right school(s) and somehow magically know EVERYONE. And maybe you'll get a job. Of course only one job isn't going to pay the bills, so you either have to have two or three jobs or marry rich. If this wasn't literally the only thing I'd ever want to do with my life, I wouldn't bother. I really don't have the energy to get to know EVERYONE and be everyone's best friend. But apparently I have to. Apparently, I have to get involved with all this social media crap because it's the only way to "communicate" with people (that's a laugh!). I never wanted a Facebook again…I find it psychologically damaging, but maybe I have no choice? Maybe I have to become the complete opposite of myself? I sort of had an idea that I was going to have to sell my soul to get anywhere, but yikes…it's difficult to just get rid of morals like that.

And the saddest part of all is the only leads for jobs I have at the moment (that I can do while being a full-time doctoral student which affords almost 0 time to get to know EVERYONE AND have an actual full-time job AND work on a new and developing relationship) are leads I've gotten because of who I happen to be sleeping with. Yep, apparently I'm a *****.