As soon as there is a change in dynamics, as soon as the there is a reduction in the closeness I step away. This is the first sense of being abandoned.

I get why people leave or reduce their friendship but its hurts to be liked/loved one minute and then not the next... or not seen under the same light.

My sadness is loosing a friend, loosing what we had and knowing that it will never been the same and what we had is lost forever.
Maybe i'm being selfish in all this but this fear of abandonment wont heal and its been burnt into me from infancy to adulthood.