I'm glad to hear that this isn't too strange a way to feel.

Just to clarify Skeezyks I have never missed T before, and can almost guarantee that had I had an uneventful break, would be totally fine with it. To be honest, in that instance I would probably have quite enjoyed the break.

I do have friends and family i can usually talk to, but the issue is one of those that's still a sort of social ("we don't discuss such things") taboo. Most people don't know how to react or what to say so just ignore you, or they ask the (stupid) question "are you ok?". This in it's self is a trick. The expected answer is "yeah", saying no usually results in the akward ignoring as mentioned earlier.
Another thng I thought about when reading the responses is that due to the nature of the incident, the dark place is partially manifesting it's self as mourning, and I think my feelings regarding the break are being kind of 'woven' into that.

I think first couple of sessions back we should deal with the main problem so it's not being dragged out any longer than necessary. We are due a relationship reflection soon so that would be a good time to bring this up I think.