Well, here's something kind of weird I was reading the other day - there are a lot of people who don't have as many friends as they let on. In fact, almost no one has as many friends as they say they do. I think it's more a matter of expectations. You're probably like I am, that is, you're looking for a connection and appreciation with other people and not a transient "see you twice a year" type of friendship. When you try to get to know someone, for them it's a lot of effort and they back away. It's not really that you're weird or defective, but rather they kind of don't feel like putting in the effort. That probably won't be much comfort, but you are most certainly not alone in being dissatisfied with your social situation. I would say just try to focus on what you're doing to pursue the things you like and try to be natural. If you're at least pursuing your hobbies, it's not a total waste, right?