It comes back to one thing, my friend. That is, Why? Why is it that you feel like you want to die? Is there something missing that you feel like you'll never get? Is there an unsolved problem in your life? Or is it for no particular reason? If it is like an urge that you can't explain, then maybe you have some kind of emotional disorder. Fine, that can be helped in many ways. If you can specifically say, it's because of ... "this" ... then, maybe you could think about, Do i want to change ... "this" ... in my life? Or, Why don't i want to change ... "this" ... in my life? What is the cause, my friend? If you don't know the cause, then i suggest you speak to a trusted friend or authority in an attempt to identify this cause.