I do have an image of what the Better Bean will look like and be. Even though it's petty, the BB will be 10 lb lighter and be in better shape. The BB will take care of her appearance more. The BB will be full of joy and zest for life. The BB won't be dreading what is around the next corner.

The BB will be confident and happy and proud.

I sometimes wish I could run away and start over, I really do. But there would be people I miss dearly. There's also people I wish I could sit down and tell them - "the reason your life is so miserable is because of ...." It's so obvious. But, to each their own, and while their lives are miserable they will make everyone else's lives miserable too.