Can't tell you how many times in my life I have been in the exact spot. Nothing seems to work, no hope, no point in trying, pray to die each night. I can tell you one thing. It always passes. After twenty years of meds a new one I am on now is working better than any med I have ever taken. Not that none of them ever worked. They did. It's just this one is working way better than any of the others. So you never know. Normally beginning of Nov. to a couple weeks into Jan. would be my absolute worse just about every year. This year I had a great holiday season and never dove to the depths. Never never stop trying is our theme around here, even if you just have to ride it out. It will change.