so why not imagine what you would like your life to be? then pick the simpliest part of that imagined life and set some small goals to start working toward. without having anything in your imagination, you have nothing to work toward. if all you have pictured is doom and gloom, then doom and gloom is all you are ever going to get. decide on something that is going to make you feel successful, that is going to utilize your strenghts, that is going to make you feel good. i felt like such a waste. i wanted more but never felt like i was going to make it. i wanted to go back to school and get a career but had no idea what i wanted to do. i couldnt see it. so i went and took one class a semester. you have to get all those garbage classes out of the way to get a degree anyway. it took me forever but by the time i got my associates i knew what i wanted to do. it took me ten years to graduate. but now my dream is realized and my income is doubled and i finally have a life. one small step at a time.