That problem is so, so much more common than you would think. A LOT of people who don't struggle with depression have no close friendships at all. It's about feeling too awkward to initiate a relationship and not putting in enough effort to maintain it over long periods of time. Your depression is an obstacle for sure, but it is not making you weird at all. A LOT of people are actually muc lonlier than they are willing to let on. No one wants to admit that they have no friends, so you find it extremely common for people to exaggerate the number of friends they actually have. Just do your best to at least text them and try to push yourself out of your comfort zone more than you normally would. It's not easy, but pushing yourself will shorten the duration of your depressive episodes. I've been trying to do it more over the past year and it is extremely difficult at times.