OMG I can relate to the adderrall thing. I'm on it too. It's strange. I feel like I have glasses on now or something. I can see different. The world looks more vibrant and beautiful. I see the grass sway, the trees, and the beauty in people. I hug my mom every day. I want to do things. Sometimes I feel anxious though, well often. Something still feels not quite right. There's still a restlessness and unhappiness, but it's more in the back of my mind. It's less consuming. It's so strange. I feel like I'm back in life participating. I'm not used to it.
It's strange being happy and participating in life. It must be that we are not used to it anymore? ?