I really wish I was a woman, had the looks and adored for me being me that way. I wish so badly, it's so hard that you want to change and go through the transition knowing that it wouldn't look right and hating your body and looking at everything you hate about yourself that your stuck with.

Plus being attracted to women too, it's so much harder, trying to play a guy role when you want to be a woman role too. You want guys to hold the door for you, and take the female societal priviledges in stride while finding them bs to begin with. Having a baby, working on my looks and not be laughed at.

Looking naturally pretty and just putting my best foot forward without feeling like you are some monster that just walts in the room. I'm never open about this insecurity. I can't and not able to do it comfortably and feeling like you don't measure up to other guys period.

Then if you want to change your looks you can't look gorgeous and stick with the ugly hack job done to your face and paying all this money for that. It's like I'm in hell with that, and constantly being ridiculed for it.

When all I want to look like is this.

http://wallvan.com/download?filename...Wallpapers.jpg