I've been diagnosed with ADHD for 3 years now. and just recently Bipolar. I have ADHD bad. I can't sit still, focusing on something is practically impossible, even if someone is talking face to face to me and i tell myself i need to listen to them but then it just goes in one ear and out the other. And, for example, I have a pretty messed up knee (2 surgeries already) and even though it hurts like hell to walk on i can't fight the compulsion to get up and pace around on it. I've been prescribed zyprexa for bp, which helps a little (but makes me even spacier) but i still pace around and have manic episodes. Anyways... I just started my first year at college (blew my 1st semester completely) but i've become really interested in everything. Philosophy, buddhism, metaphysics, astronomy, ans psychology. I use rational and logical thinking, and i believe knowledge is power.I feel like i am meant to do bigger things. But i do terrible in school. So what do i do? Where is my place in this world? I can't enjoy my interests much with me always having the urge to move. I can't find release in my physical hobbies with my jacked up knee, which is only going to get worse.