Exactly. I don't know how that could be possible. If many trans people who were bi and gay did it doesn't mean I have to.

Yeah even though it seems I'm the minority with others in the trans community, doesn't mean anything other than I like girls and that they are hot. It was hard to come out as bi sexual it still is, because of that specifically then it be like, "ah ha I knew it you only like guys all this time!" I am so scared of some people assuming that and then forcing me to date their guy friends or something strange and things get awkward fast.

Like, some of my other relatives my cousin I'll say even though he is in his 50's Paul maybe later 40's. when I came and told him about it, he was super supportive and nice about it.

I love how my family loves me more and is helping me with this, but when I said about me being bi and said that I don't like that when people would assume that. I feel many other gay guys felt the same in general. That if they came out as gay or bi, their girlfriends or guy friends would hook them up with another gay friend of their's and say "you're both gay now kiss and date eachother". Like are we in preschool still? this isn't play pretend. I'm into guys, but rarely, I told him, that I don't find many men attractive for them to be attractive it's almost too specific and not worth trying to have sex with more rather date, but when I do I find their masculinity hot as well.

His response was, "I definitely know exactly what you mean. Many guys even if they are gay too, can be completely unattractive in their behavior and looks to me, but that's ok. I agree"

Like, to put into perspective, I go crazy over girls instantly, guys not so much, only once or twice a month or a year. It's just as rare as seeing a beautiful woman, and literally makes my heart and words skip at the same time and being awkward dunce about it all the other times. Even if a lot of guys adore her and I do believe they are right and she is gorgeous, but I don't go crazy like they do. I find many guys who act like this super jealous overly possesive nature a win lose situation. Why I am bi, is that from the male qualities I find most attractive despite if I was gay and only into guys, I'd be a dominant one when it comes to sex, but like the aggressive manly side. The same stuff women go for, but like women and other guys who experience this first hand find it can easily get out of hand where it's almost creepy and rather obnoxious and objectifying. The fact I don't do it to the girls I like puts them off and they assume I'm gay, like sometimes I ask all the time, "do you even? like seriously do you even human?"

In the end, I find what attracts me to women, is the tenderness the sole fact of her appearance whether she is ugly without all the makeup and she's the hottest model around with it on, and at the same time find her so beautiful just because of who she is on the inside as a person is so amazing the looks don't matter to much rather complete the individual. I saw that moment what I just said of what I really love in women, at the wedding when it came to my uncle marrying his husband, it was the most adorable thing I've ever experienced. I thought it was so perfect, like not even fake it felt so amazing. I cried of how sweet he was with him. They click and are a amazing powerful couple or a power couple in my words I like to say.
The picture was my woman crush lights, I like those looks from a woman and wish I had them might work but Idk.