My life is also not so great, I feel alone. I am 39yrs old, have a job but not a career, i still live with my parents. Zero social life. I'm a very shy person. I have very low self esteem..I guess its because I was ridiculed by my own parents while growing up. I hated my childhood and can't seem to get over it. I can't afford to rent my own place bcoz rent here in my country is expensive. I work 5 times a week, and on day offs i sleep most of the time. TV is my bestfriend and i cannot imagine life without it. I rarely go out of the house because I have a lot of fears...fears of bumping into excoworkers or past friends acquaintances. Fear that people will realize how miserable my life is at 39....I dont understand why my life turned out like this! Weird, I know. I admire you shelterdog71 because you have a love for dogs. Dogs are good therapy. And walking your dogs is a great way to start exercising and loose some weight. Exercise helps eliminate sadness. I do not know you personally but I will include you in my prayers tonight. Prayers are powerful. (I know you are not a very religious person as what u have said) When I am down and out, what I do is pray.
Take good care of yourself shelterdog71. Hope your operation turned out successful. A lot of people care for you. I live in the other part of the world, if only I could give you a big hug and make you feel you are not alone....