hi
i have been in this spot so many times in my life. i starting praying to die when i was 5 and was severely depressed for 30 years. it was dark enough that i made a few attempts in my lifetime. i so understand wanting to give up and be done. if you need to talk, just click on my name and choose the send private message option and i am here to listen, welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome