My pdoc is working a 4 day week because she has a 5 month old baby. She also is medical director of the psych clinic I go to. She used to be my only therapist until she went out on leave and left me in the hands of a very capable psychologist whom I like very much.

My problem is trust and always has been to some extent. We sit there and pour out all our miserable feelings and failings and faults, etc. and I feel shame about all of it.

Well my pdoc told me she would not be doing any more therapy work at all when she returned from leave and would only be seeing people for medication visits.

So, yesterday I get a call from the front desk person who says she needs to reschedule a med. visit with my pdoc. I said wow she is busy with all these med. visits, and the girl tells me "She has also been doing therapy visits". Right away the red flag came up of anger, fear and distrust. I was very hurt.

I wrote my pdoc a nasty little note asking her about it and now I wish I could take it back! I did write and apologize but still have not heard from her. I suppose she could be out of the office.

Do you think I have ruined any relationship with the pdoc? I do see the psychologist for therapy now and like her a lot, but now worried about the whole issue of trusting. Maybe I should just quit therapy altogether and get my help from the Lord, my Bible Study group, and my close Christian friends plus my husband who is very supportive and level-headed (more than I am obviously).

Very discouraged,
Olivia