It's really strange how awful it can be to have nothing to do. At least if you are in an office, you can go gossip with coworkers or clean out your filing cabinet. To be sitting at home waiting for someone to contact you, not fun. Can you go off and do something fun or do you have to be available in case something happens? At least it gives you plenty of time for coming up with a reply to the woman leading the other team! Are you in a technical field also?

I haven't heard from my friend - or her coworker. I do think that it's easier to talk to her on the phone or in person... but we just *did* talk in person and now her email is saying something at odds with that conversation. She's quite different from most people, so I don't feel like I can just call her.

I guess I *don't* know what I want to be doing either. Sometimes I think I do, but then I change my mind or forget what it is I thought I wanted. I know some of the attributes and how I want it to fit into my life. I suspect that I would like to be involved in small, finite projects. I also think those projects might involve systems design here, a website there, an app or two - and perhaps something not related to technology at all - travel guides, small business advising services.

The problem with the above is that there's an incredible lack of focus. At the same time, I find it hard to stomach the idea of committing to just one thing.

I've been living for a few years like I'm retired and done and that time is coming to an end. I keep putting this off!!