The delusions are never fun my heart felt like it was racing and I did some crazy things like writing a question and answer to what would be deemed sinful to the movie " forgeting sarah Marshall" I thought the internet was deceiving me. And I felt like I had to hide my crazy thoughts thank god I only shared my crazy thought with close friends but I lost one after this ordeal. I was life guarding while I had some racing thoughts. Thank goodness I made it through that day.my aunt told me that I hadn't been sleeping or eating. She told me if it continued to go to the hospital. I went in and they gave me sleeping pills, then I came back and they said, " I don't think your getting the help you need." So I got admitted. At the beginning of my treatment my grandmother told me about wizard of oz symbolism. I remember laying on my bed feet in the air chanting the courage , the heart and the brain. I told the dr what was wrong with me and I was talking about stuff from my phisology class, " rest digest " " fight or flight". I think I was functioning delusional for almost a week. Scary thought now. I keep thinking about trying to live a life with out meds. But I know deep down I should never try to get off meds again.