I was unhappy about the way my last talk went with the person I was counseling with. My first thought was to write her and try to fix it. Since she was away on vacation I thought I should wait until she returned. By the time the days went by I was convinced it wasn't fixable and I should just quit. So I wrote that to her explaining what I was upset about but also telling her I was going to stop. Since then , I have felt guilty , angry with myself, and without my usual outet. It may not have been perfect but it was sometimes good. I think I have thrown the baby out with the bath water . I think I shouldn't have given up so soon. I did leave the door open but I am so uncertain of the outcome of trying again. I fear it woud be difficult , stilted, and might be even harder than being on my own. However, the pain is great!