I'm sorry, I thought Amandalouise was one of your parts... I went back and read the thread and see her post. I don't think she is telling you she doesn't understand. When I read her post, she was explaining her system and her non emotional parts... I do think she understood.

Each of us has our own system of coping, each of us has a unique system, that was created by us, just for us. If you have a part that has not emotion (as do I) then it was created by you for a reason, to protect you, to be able to take you to school and think and study, have no emotion, because to deal with the emotion at the time was just way too much... thus you have a non emotional part that was needed to get you through school. At least that is why my Narrator came to be. He made sense out of chaos. I use to think he was just awful for not feeling... but as I begin to understand my system and why it works the way it does... I understand.

Not everyone's system is the same, not everyone will understand... what is most important is that you learn to understand your system... it is a very hard thing to do and takes a lot of work and is a very scary thing..... Many times, I deny that I even have a system. Just depends on what part is needed to be present at the time. Just know your system is unique to you... don't question it... Amandalouise gave you very good advice in that you need to find a very good psychologist, if you haven't already, who will carefully and slowly help you start to discover the parts of you that have separated. Each part has a reason, each part has a place and each part, even the ones that are mean, is there to protect you.... that was the hardest thing for me to wrap my mind around... and at times I still have a hard time wrapping my mind around it.

Not everyone is going to understand.... not all parts of you are going to understand... I am grateful I have a part that is unemotional and can handle things at times .... it is a coping mechanism....

There is a long road ahead of you, to discover who your really are... you need a guide, think of a psychologist or qualified mental health professional as your guide to help you discover the map to your own system.
I hope that made sense... sorry if I am rambling