For radioflyer,

You are right in saying it seemed 'therapy only highlighted negatives, so I have accepted the negatives.......and LOST the positives........'

I get lost on all the negatives of life too......it's a slippery slope one must avoid at all costs.....I have a shady past too but perhaps with a new T you can focus on what is going on in your life right now!!

You write well and I, too, have made a mess of my life yet I am happy to say in the last eight months I have turned it around and that is my hope for you...

The fact that you don't feel connected to these bad memories shows your heart lives for the here & now....

write us again and let us know more about your life and any new ideas you have- thinking of you- junerain