I went through an epic battle with MI and a difficult home life as a teenager. I moved out at 17, suicidal, etc. For many years after I felt like I just didn't have the fight in me for more, I had battled enough. Now occasionally I feel like I have some fight but NOT NEARLY as much as I did in my 20s. I've lost a lot of my energy being a parent to 3 small children and working FT.