I hate being an onlooker to others enjoying themselves!, i know shoot me, it reminds me to much of my own inate saddness, my own inablity to move up from the gutter and take life and enjoy it, i dont want to leave the darkness becdause you have to be prepared ofr the stuff that falls out of the sky and changes everything..when this happens you try to forget that the stuff has fallen and the bit of the world that you take up has stopped...it will neve be as you once knew it and the laughts from others continue unyet my world has just stopped how can no one see that how can they use happiness against you as a tool to rip your heart out?