I am 22 months off and still have a laundry list of withdrawal symptoms, a lot physical and tons psychological. It's an incredible nightmare that won't end.

The last few weeks I have noticed myself notably shaky all the time. I can be out somewhere feeling anxious and then notice that I am trembling. In addition, I feel like my chest is vibrating which adds to my anxiety. I told my son that I feel like "Alien", like something is going to jump out of my chest! It's like a vicious circle when a physical symptom like trembling seems to cause increased anxiety.

What is disturbing is that I am really afraid that this has not reached it's peak and wonder what horrific physical symptom is coming next? Will I break out in hives or terrible bumps all over my body and face? Will I get shingles due to the stress this has put my mind and body through? I debate back and forth whether to take a klonopin and stop the cycle of what seems to be a worsening of my physical condition. Many bad things have happened to my body since going through this withdrawal. Weight gain, GI problems, blood pressure vacillates from high to low. I retain fluid all over and sometimes have wheezing and symptoms of congestive heart failure. My doctor who does not think I am having these symptoms because of klonopin withdrawal (typical of most mds) and sent me to a cardiologist. Since the symptoms come and go randomly, he found nothing wrong with me (at the time).

This is so super frustrating, with no one in the medical community supporting me, they do not believe that you can have such a long, protracted withdrawal with such physical symptoms. There is really no one to talk to about all this either.

I have to believe that I have suffered some long term permanent effects from all this. Allegedly, this will all go away and I will feel better than ever. At the least I will need some kind of physical rehab to get my body back in shape, being inactive has definitely taken a toll.