SI trigger


I've already promised T I'd "make it" through this week taking my meds and not dissecting my arm. I'm not depressed just "there". Weight gain is nagging at me. I'm allowed to take 1/2 to 1 pill of 7.5 mg Zyprexa. If I take the 7.5 It medicates my personality away but 1/2 The urge to dissect myself becomes almost consistent. The nurse was no help and told me to wait it out. No one seems to be taking my weight gain seriously. My clothing is no longer fitting and no one seems to be alarmed except me. I'm now silent and only really respond when interacted with. I can fake being social an hour a week but Zyprexa has stole my personality. time seems to slow. I don't know what to do while 'stable'. How do I lose the weight and get my personality back and fill my day? I don't see pdoc until the end of next month.