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Jan 07, 2015, 02:01 AM
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Member Since: May 2014
Location: Australia
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I have not had issues with SI, but hear what you are saying with the weight gain and the zombie like effect of medication. What makes it worse I think is that in your head you are one person, but you cannot project that person outwardly, and you come across dumb, stupid, lame ete. That leads to frustration, which in turn only makes things worse. Maybe that was just me. As far as the clothes, try to go with the flow. Buy more clothes if you have to, but you can deal with the weight gain when you are feeling more stable. Not a pleasant thought, and understandable that it would be distressing, but hard as it maybe, you can only fight the fights you can win at the moment. It sounds like it is taking all your energy just to hold it together, so do what you can to keep your weight down (exercise, good diet etc) and make a promise to yourself that when this all settles down you will look at loosing weight. Make it a reward for holding it together.
I can only imagine how hard it must be for you, but please hang in there, keep your promise to your T, and give yourself a time out from worrying about your weight. Honestly you are more desirable alive than you are being able to fit into a size 10 dress 
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Last edited by Blitter2014; Jan 07, 2015 at 02:18 AM.
Reason: Can't type, can't spell, but oh can I ramble :)
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