How are things now, ((lucami))? I hope that your dog is ok and that you have weathered that particular storm.
Do you have a T, or just the pdoc? Is there someone you can talk to properly, who knows your situation and will listen and understand? This forum does have lots of people who have been through or are going through similar situations, so please do vent on here as much as you need to.
Gentle

Bluegrey