((Pianogirl))
You have tried to do the right things and to cope with what is before you. That is all anyone, including yourself, should expect. When we get things wrong, it just means we have another try. It's ok to make mistakes or not succeed at something, honest. This is something I struggle with too, so what I have just written is what I tell myself rather a lot - but taking the pressure off, or trying to, actually seems to make it easier to carry on.
You probably know all this in your head, it's just convincing yourself deep down that is so hard. You have worth just by being, by existing, so don't write yourself off.

Bluegrey