My god, you almost made me feel better in some kind of way with this post because I feel like this all the time but nobody understand. Everyday is a struggle to tell people not to take it personally if I want to be on my own and sleep and lie in my bed and not talk to anyone and turn my mobile off. Everyone is always like 'you don't want me around' and it's so stressful honestly explaining that it's just my disposition, my sadness, my illness. How can you tell someone that you're not in the mood to speak or hang out because there's only suicide on your mind? Sometimes I don't succeed in sounding sincere about not hating whoever is asking me to meet and I'm forced to do things that make me feel uncomfortable to say the least.
So yes, I want to be alone too. I can't tell you this isn't odd in some kind of way because I feel like a human error all the time so everything I do looks strange and awful to me. By the way, I do believe it can't be wrong, since I'm not hurting anyone.

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