it seems like no mater what plan I make I run into walls.... and I have to always live with the "F" plan... that is working but so far away from what I wanted.........
this is now especially with education.....
I always stress out and burn out too easily and it seems it is getting faster and faster......
and while I feel I'm smart enough to learn anything I always end up being bad with new things.. because I eighter force myself trough anxiety painfully or freeze and do nothing.
right now I'm about to cry (I'm in selfdoubt again) that no mater what I plan for just education..... I always fail because of this. and I'd be sad to leave yet this behind of me... yet I know I'll collapse under my own pressure soon................
and the other very sad part is that I know once I know something with a level of certainity I'm good to go... I can do my job and all.........
but I'm so unable to reach that level.
why do I wrong myself? how can I simply ... and slowly approach a plan without loosing impact and/or completely stressing out?